I could even say lately I’ve felt lost, even depressed.  Not because God hasn’t been extremely good to my family, but because I feel like I haven’t been extremely good to Him.  I’ve been so busy managing my stuff that I’ve neglected to shout out praise to Him by how I live.  I’m worried quite often about things that don’t hold a candle to anything eternal.  How am I going to get my backyard done before the HOA slaps a fine on me, my wood floors are cracking, I’ve got 98 spindles to paint on my stair rail, a big month at work, raises, bonuses, position….  How do I focus my family on things that matter eternally, how do I build an eternal perspective in my family when my actions support these other things?

I’ve been reading a couple books to try and help me wake up from this slump I feel stuck in.  To help me find how I fit in this mess.  But when it comes down to it I’m already found.  And, I have been uniquely made for a purpose.  The struggle shouldn’t be for God’s acceptance, I’m already accepted.  I’m already His friend, His child, His bride (weird being a guy to say that).  I am being fiercely pursued.  The question isn’t about being loved, I was loved enough for Christ to die for me while I was yet a sinner.  The question is how can I accept that I’m already found and glorify God in the midst of my acceptance?  Once I grasp the Lord’s acceptance; I can joyfully be a living sacrifice. 

Through natural (general) revelation my kids help with this picture.  They adore me in my imperfection and I am fiercely committed to them in their misbehavior.

Jenn helps me in this picture, she is fiercely committed to me.

My friends help me, they are there for me.